I remember many evenings spent with my little brother, Ryan, and my baby sister, Kassy. Ryan and I would pick Kassy up and spin her around in circles as fast and as long as we could stand and then put her on the floor and watch her try and walk as she weaved back and forth across the carpet in the livingroom, falling down every second step. Ryan and I would laugh until we cried watching her. And Kassy would laugh too just because Ryan and I were laughing. She probably had no idea what we thought was so humorous then, but she laughed anyway. Other times, Ryan and I would pretend to take Kassy's nose, or her arm, or legs, or eyes. She'd ask for them back because she really thought we'd taken them from her. Sometimes we'd give whatever we "took" back to her, other times we'd put it on our own bodies and tell her she couldn't have it back. This usually made her cry and frantically try to to take whatever we had taken from her back. These moments were probably worthy of being on America's Funniest Home Videos, but we never got it on tape.
|My baby sisters and I at Ryan's last ever |
high school football game!
|My foster mom, Jen, and I at the 2010 Mpls Great Strides Walk|
|My foster dad, Chad, and I at my graduation party.|
|Lucas and me <3|
I have so many happy memories stored in my brain, but there are also some very unhappy memories I have filled away as well. Even in the midst of those hard times, there are some pretty amazing memories thrown into those unhappy ones. The happy memories from those times are probably the only reasons I was able to make it through.
|My brothers, Nick & Lucas, and my dad, Jim, |
and mom, Johnna, and myself
For me, the hardest thing about transplant is not raising the thousands of dollars it takes to be listed, it's knowing someone else has to pass away for me to live. It's also the most motivating. Knowing that someone made the decision to give life once their's was over makes me fight so much harder for a second chance at life. I refuse to give up. And I refuse to go down without a fight, and if I have to go down, I'll be swinging and landing punches the entire way. They always say your outlook is half the battle. Well my outlook is positive and my will power is strong. So I've already won half the war.
|My baby sisters and foster mom, Jen when they came to visit |
me when I was stuck at Duke! <3
Here I am saying BRING IT ON! I've lived through 100% of life so far, I think the odds are in my favor.
*** As many of you may know, in order for me to get listed for this life-saving transplant that I very desperately need, I have to raise at LEAST $15,000; however the goal is $40,000 set up by COTA (Children's Organ Transplant Association) to be sure I will have the financial stability I need to make it through the most critical months after transplant. I fully understand that many of you may be financially tight at the moment, but if you could spare even a few dollars, I'd be forever grateful! No amount is too small, I promise! So, if you can afford to give even a dollar, please do! Help me get my second chance at life and the ability to experience what its like to breathe easy. You can donate through COTA in honor of me. Your contributions are tax deductible to the fullest extent allowed by law. And 100% of your donation goes to helping with transplant expenses. Please consider!
COTA Fundraising Donation Page - Click the link to be redirected to the donation page :)